Recovery

I never thought it would be this hard to recover from my last knee surgery, the dreaded TOTAL KNEE REPLACEMENT. This being surgery number 17 I knew somewhat what I was in for, but I did not realize the emotinal roller coaster that would come with it.
The surgery went well and had a few complications after surgery with a collapsed lung that earned me an extra day in the hospital, so after 5 days I finally came home. The pain was not as bad as I thought it would be, don't get me wrong it was painfull, but compared to some of my other surgeries this seemed like a breeze. After 2 weeks of home therapy, and 3 weeks of daily outpatient therapy, and 12 hours a day in the CPM to stop the scar tissue forming, my motion was no better than when I left the hospital, so the Dr sugessted another surgery.

A manipulation to gain motion. Which ment going to the hospital being put to sleep and him forcefully bending my leg till it bent as far as he needed to crack all the scar tissue build up in there, I knew it had to be done but in the back of my mind I was thinking what if something goes wrong and it doeasn't work. Luckily it has given me more motion than I have had for years and the knee is doing really well. I'm still doing my therapy 3 times a week to get more motion and see make sure I keep the motion I have.

I think even harder than the knee pain and rehab was having a 2 year old around. With all of my other surgeries I was single and never had to worry about another persons' well being along with my recovery. My husband is wonderful and just one step under perfect. He kept the house clean, the laundry done and watched Ben on his days off to so I could rest and get my 12 hours in the machine. On his work days I had so much help from my familiy, they took Ben for sleepovers or just came to the house to watch him to give me a break.

I felt like a failure of a Mom, I couldn't hardley do anything with him and when I tried to spend time with him I had such s shourt fuse that it ususally just ended up with me crying and getting upset at him. One particular time he came home from my sister in laws house after a few days of sleepovers he gave me a big hug and told me "Mom, I really really missed you I just want to snuggle with you". I have such a wonderful little family that I'm greatful for every day. I hope Ben doesn't remember the times when I blow my top and have to be rescued by Wes, but instead the days we snuggle on the couch and watch "Go Go Deigo" over and over and over.

I'm trying to be a better Mom and wife and person in general and give the unconditional love that my Mom, sister's, sister in laws, Mother in law, and friends have shown me over the past weeks.

Thanks you everyone!